It's not news to the attentive ear, that the last month at Sunday masses, we heard the entirety of John chapter 6 regarding the Bread of Life. I know for me and my brother priests and deacons, that it was a great challenge to each week not spill over themes and ideas from previous or future weeks and to give a clear, crisp presentation each week.
I was hesitant to write each of the homilies out here because I was afraid of just that: saying too much one week and not having enough for the other weeks and there being proof of it here online! So, I thought it would be good to sum up some of my thoughts on that infamous chapter of John's gospel and some reflection on what this Bread - this Eucharist - really is.
What I think is the reason we can have so much doubt when it comes to the Eucharist is, not that what we claim it to be is so radical - for it is a radical claim , not that we have so many other distractions and worries in our lives - for indeed we all do, but what I think is the most difficult obstacle for us to overcome is the reality that the Eucharist is so perfect and we really have nothing else to gauge it against.
To illustrate: We all give of ourselves to the people we love. Husbands and wives, quite obviously give of themselves emotionally, spiritually and physically in such a way that the two become one flesh. Their love, their sacrifices, their desire for the other propels them to give themselves wholly to the suppose. Single people give of themselves wholly too, but not to make two into one like in marriage, but in a chaste self-offering where they love through emotional and spiritual support. They, in my opinion, have perhaps the hardest vocation because they are called to no particular person or community, but are to be lovers of all people in the world and give that sacrifice and that love to all people. The celibate is called to be a spiritual father or mother to a community, the church. They are called to offer themselves wholly and entirely for their flock so as to lead and guide them to eternal life.
All of this is true, good and beautiful, but there is an obvious limit to how much we can give wholly. For human beings, we dont privide our bodies for physical nourishment, we provide spiritual and emotional nourishment through our presence and relationships. If we are physically hungry or thirsty, your spouse, friend, pariahionrer, brother or sister is not and cnnot quench that - it is beyond what they can do for you. No one loves to the point of slicing their body up for physical nourishment! That is just sick and weird and not what we do. So there is a very obvious boundary to how we can give ourselves over for another - But, with Christ, no such boundary exists.
Christ knows no limit to the amount or the ways in which He can give of himself to us. There is no code, law, political correctness, stereotype, expectation, geography, obstacle or force for Him to overcome - Nothing prohibits God from giving Himself to us - even His very flesh and blood!
That is what this Eucharist is. That is why it can be so hard to accept. We are in the presence of and receiving the most perfect Love. We are consuming the very sacrifice that only God can give. We are accepting a Love that we cannot begin to do justice to. In the light of all of our failings, our sins, our insecurities, our struggles and addictions - Christ still pours our His blood for us to quench our thirst and still offers His flesh for us to ease our pangs.
The Eucharist is the Bread of Life simply because it is the Bread of Love. It is the only tangible presence of True Love among us, and it is only love that can give life. Not just physical life, for even two parents devoid of any love for their children can bring about physical life, but spiritual and emotional life. Only a mom and dad who constantly tells and shows love to their children will assure the young will have true life within them. So too with the Bread of Life. It is not so much physical hunger it is seeking to alleviate - for we can in some degree live solely on it, but thats not the idea of it. Its not the Catholic way to give up all food and drink and live solely on the Eucharist - though many holy men and women have throughout the ages - but to find True Life from that food, to know what it means to live and be loved.
Its an extraordinary reality that passes our lips at every mass and that sits (unfortunately too often alone) in our churches. The God of the Universe, the God who made every atom of the cosmos, the God born of a virgin, the Logos, the God who died on a cross for us makes His very physical presence known and shown everyday all over the world. The only reason it happens is for us to feast on Love.
Then, ultimately, John presents us with a choice. Do we act as if its just yet another thing we need to do, just another symbol among the treasure chest of Catholic symbols and signs, just something that I think about on Sundays in the same stream of worldly distractions? Or do we say Yes to It and let the Bread of Life, true tangible Love to give us life, to transfigure every atom of our being, to transform human hearts and earthly institutions, to not let our faith be something hidden except for an hour on Sundays, and to let our entire selves be drowned in Love without wanting to be pulled out of the water? That is the choice we have. To let the Eucharist do what It has the power to do is our constant struggle, our constant aim. It requires much sacrifice and being put out into the deep, but the rewards are eternal and the benefits are otherworldly. To say no to Christ and to just remain passive in the face of Love, will only make the jowls of our souls sandy with thirst and the gut of our hearts to wrench in hunger and pain.
Come to the Bread of Life. Come to the Eucharist. Feast from the table of Sacrifice. Dine at the heavenly banquet. Nourish yourself with pure and utter Love. Be transformed and transfigured. Let your fears and insecurities fade away as you embrace Life and know Love.
